i feel in love with my best friend.
it ended.

now i'm in love with someone he's grown up with.






he doesn't know yet.

When I was little, I used to talk to my reflection in certain mirrors. I'd ask it questions like 'How are you doing on the other side?' thinking I was talking to my parallel self in a parallel universe.

Just sayin...

there are a lot of fuckin drafts...and we can all read them.

...Heads up, guys...

-Natalye

I...fell in love....

with...a...







stripper.

If you COULD leave me, then you SHOULD leave me. I'm tired of having to worry about it.

I can't live a lie





but I guess you can

You have no idea how terrible of a friend I am.
I am so sorry.

oh my god STOP


stop being this way you're losing everything

we were the special two

i am trying so hard
and this is difficult for me
but you act like it doesn't matter
it makes me really sad

i did it again and i hate myself for it
im not going to say anything to you
but im not going to do it again

I frequently dream
of being

a respectable,

award winning,








and famous actress.

Mouths are for talking, not just sucking dick.

i miss you baby!

we stole your quarters to buy losing scratcherz. fuck you.

“When you cease to exist, then who will you blame?” - Bob Dylan

drugs have ruined every aspect of my life and have taken so much from me.
you would think that I would hate them.
but I struggle everyday to not use them.

dear friend you've become exactly
what we have allways hated

ive lost every one of my friends to drugs
they dont know how alone i feel

Punk secret ..... More like punk hey I know this one is you

im pretty sure i know who the last post was that was deleted. be who you are. thats all.

i've been falling for you since the moment i met you

I have so many friends but i feel more alone than ever.

im convinced you tell me what you think i wanna hear


not how you actually feel

i've always admired you. always....
at this point in my life i don't know what to do about it. we live so close...so close.
you're in a relationship and it kills me. fucking MURDERS me. i know that i'm in a few relationships myself...but that's way different. i want the best for you, obviously, but i would love it if you guys would break up.
i'm looking at you right now. you are so perfect in each and every single possible way. dang.

i feel that something could happen between us at any time. i guess only time and the occasional prayer will tell.
i hope you recognize my hand writing...

;)

i miss my bestfriend!

i should have never left you.

I can't do this.

I wish that I didn't have to make all of the effort.
It's really obvious who's chasing who.

i need my best friend back. fuck that bitch

i don't want to delete your phone number.
even though you've passed away.
i just cant bring myself to do it.

fuck,i think i do love you.

I miss you as my bestfriend. Not my lover. Come back.

i think i feel the same way....i just dont have anything to compare it to so dont know what it is.

i wish you spent the day with me.
i wish i could believe you when you say you're falling in love with me.

I hate that you can't say no to your friends but you can always say no to me.

nothing will ever be the same. in a good way.

I suck at least one dick on every Tuesday....and only on Tuesday.

i just spent 13 dollars and 60 cents on cupcakes.

If you're that afraid of change and are already having regrets,
why are you doing it.
It was your decision in the first place...
so either suck it up and stop complaining,
or don't go.

I'm so scared to leave. 

I wasn't asleep.

You are on your way here,

I don't know how I feel about it.

Christine is the epitome of everything that is amazing, wonderful, beautiful, and beyond-words-fucking-awesome. And I love her. So do you.

shoe makes real good burrito's.
heather is just the cutest thing.
the end.

King Size Snickers.

This love feels soo good. (:

I'm sitting next to The Legend.

Once I saw this video i couldn't get you off my mind. I wish you knew how I felt.

Dear you,

I remember when pastels seemed to own my world nothing was sharp or dark or crude. When I would smile my eyes would lighten with excitement the green taking over the deep blue in them. You recognized this in me from the moment you saw me, my care, my naivety, the fire burning in my personality from my heart. That's when your pursuit began like a wolf to a piece of meat. I gave you a sweet smile from across the room obviously I had my own intentions just nowhere near as dire as yours. I can feel the alcohol making heat rise to my cheeks. Somehow me and you made our way outside the dry California heat on a June night making us feel warm and more comfortable. Maybe we should've realized it was just the weather and not some feeling of desire we had for eachother. We collapse on the ground to laugh and stare at the stars. I chuckle at your sarcastic manner as we start the introductions even though I can sense how drunk and nervous you are. I remember having to move your hands away which you finally accepted after a few hundred chasetisements. To this day I remember the way you held me that night and the way you made me feel. The feeling of care that I know you had and you gave me. I hope that you are alone forever because you treat humans like the piece of shit you are.

Sincerly,
The best you'll ever have

conflicted.
story of my life.
well as of now.
so many things need work.


but i dont think its something i can do alone.

I think it finally hit me last night how much of a scum bag you really are, before i played it off like your said some sketchy things sometimes and were just rude for shock value or somthing, but the way you treat women is unexeptable. i want to confront you about it but i dont know how receptive you could possibly be.
youll probly see this and might even know it was me. if so you should bring it up, these actions prove that your more brave than I am.

im convinced im a burden to the people around me. please dont feel obligated to pretend to be my friend

I've realized I will never be good enough for you, or for anybody. I always wonder if everyone else hates themselves as much as I hate myself.

I know I didn't mean anything more to you than just a distraction from your loneliness and heartbreak. I know that once I could no longer keep your mind away from the thoughts that drive you crazy you dropped me without a second thought for that far more attractive, far more interesting young thing. And I also know that once she is no longer new to you, you will move on once again.

I knew you were doing this from the very beginning....

but it didn't stop me from letting you.

Part of me wanted it,

because part of me wanted you,

it was a small price to pay

because even if your feelings were only temporary, 

at least I had you

even if only for a minute

I met you for the first the other day, i probably wont see you soon but in the short time we hung out around eachother I managed to get a huge crush on you. Crushes are fun, but in some cases, such as these, they're a bummer cause you live there.

im always the person that people want to hookup with and move on. it seems like ill never find an actual relationship

lately i haven't been able to remember my dreams and i don't like it.

I wish I could kiss you. At least once.

i get depressed when you guys leave. it sucks

Even though you say you do, I know that you don't feel the same way that I do.

If you did, I wouldn't be here and you wouldn't be there.

We would be some place together.

this is my first post here.

i wish i fit in with you guys. i probably could, but i am too scared to find out. you are so lucky that you have such good friends. never forget that. 

i want to say things to you

but i don't want to seem weak

because then you'll think you have all the power

and the truth is you do

i lied about why i didnt come.

Come back.

none of what happened is my fault

i wasnt there everyone stop blaming me.

I hate that you don't think of me as a friend.

I don't know what I did to make you dislike me this way.

It sucks to hear.

i honestly believe that you are the love of my life

but things never seem to work out between us, it really sucks

I hate you right now.

I don't know if things could ever be the same after this.

im just looking for my chelsea bearing babe

i love you



i doubt i will see you anytime soon

i hate punxecret posts that i didnt post, but people think i did.

soooo yeahh...

fuck you

i always end up hooking up or being attracted to one of my friends ex girlfriends.
but this time its different, i could give a shit less about you, and you took her for granted anyway.
she deserved better, and i hope i can be better.

i miss you so much it hurts.

3 of us are sitting on a bed on seperate computers, we are all on this site.


fuck us

i wonder what comes next

I'm pretty sure...

you wouldn't talk to me nearly as much if we didn't have sex

and you wouldn't have sex with me if you had any other option

if i kissed you last night, would you have kissed back?

if you say you're going to do something, then do it.

You were right.

Things are different.

This time I'm going to do it right.

ha "youre so good"


i know i am

A lot of people have cheated on their significant others with me.

i just want someplace i can go where i can feel at home

Today was really hard, and I know things are only going to get harder.

But somehow, I think things will be okay.

I hope.

she reminded me of me in every way and her vagina wasnt as bitter tasting as yours.

being gone was sort of a detox, now im back in this house and stealing them again. shit.

mallory watje, sing me a song



oh and i have this threesome planned sooooo.....

I don't want this distance and time to fuck things up. I'm not gonna stop liking you.

i wish i could believe in god.

I'm so lost.

i can't believe this happened and how things are now. you will heal but will you ever be back to the same person you were before? i didn't know this was in the cards for us, we had it all planned out and now? now i can't say anything is for sure. your heart feels the same but you head got fucked and now you are different, you could come back like you were or stay like this. it really scares me, so please come back i'm trying so hard to be positive for the both of us. 

I hate that stupid old pickup truck
You never let me drive
You're a redneck, heartbreak
Who's really bad at lying

i am very happy where i am.
but
i wish you were all here.
i love you all so much.
and
miss you more than i can say.
and
i hope that you are all doing well.





you know who you are.

Each day I wake up and realize that soon, you will really be gone. and it scares me so much.

I know this is what you want and I want you to be happy.

But it's going to break my heart all over again.

Be safe.

Good or bad, whatever you could make me feel is worth it.

i really shouldn't be with anyone right now, but i don't want to be alone.

I want to go home. I am not strong enough to do this alone.
what have I got myself into. Everyday I am the farthest I've ever been from home.

I'm sure a lot of you will know who posted this and most of those people should be flattered cause its their company that I long for and wish I could drag along with me while I'm out here.

I wonder what it's like for you to know that you could have me anytime you want me.

I don't know if I miss you the same way you miss me.
But I do miss you a lot and mean that.

This feeling of seperation is bittersweet. I miss you, but I'm just tired of the bullshit.

It's not very nice to talk shit on your friends. Made me lose even more trust in people. I need out.

I wish you would believe me when I say that I am sorry.

i slept wrapped in an ammerican flag last night.

im mmerica

i drank too much beer and slept in the pool.

im mmerica

my left biceps name is The Alamo, my right Dubleya(W)

im mmerica

you lit off fire works i blew up a squirrel.

im mmerica

Hey I just want you guys to try and stay positive and hopeful. So many people say depressing things on here about their lives, and I know life if hard sometimes but you gotta push through and you will find happiness :) 

john shoemate

even though we talk and i get to see you all the time...
i miss you.
i dont know if that makes sense, its hard to explain.

I wear your clothes to bed.

Sometimes I want to say something here, but I know everyone will know it was me anyway, so I don't see the point. 

i cant wait to leave you all behind.
your not the same people i once loved,
or maybe I'm not the same person who once loved you. i hate to say it but i think I've grown up.
either way i want you out of my life, all you do is drag me down.

we're all we will ever need.

PS. i miss you friend, i hope you'll return before its too late

I know that everyone is worried about me, and that's one of the things that hurts the worst.

I told myself I wouldn't let you guys down, but I'm just not strong enough.

I'm sorry.

I have totally,utterly fallen for you.

I like the way a vagina smells.

It was meant to be like this.

michael jackson died.

This place will consume you. I need to leave, I'm sorry.

I don't want to feel like this for the rest of my life.
Every year gets worse.
I can't handle this today.
But most of the time, I feel like I deserve this.

It's no secret but I miss Dylan so much, I haven't got to talk to him for ten days and I can't believe they had to take a piece of his skull out. It's unreal what can happen on an ordinary day, I never want to take for granted anything. 

I'm gonna be lost with you guys gone.

Sometimes it sucks how sad I am....that I will never fuck Mel Gibson.

Sometimes I think you stay with these people, you walk all over them, because you are scared you might actually care about me and I'm not good enough for your friends.

seriously, that was the most perfect thing ever.
i love our talks.
you always make me feel so wise.
i hope i helped you as much as you helped me.
i love you.
even though you wont ever see this.

im using every ounce of strength to not cry...
whoops, looks like im not strong enough.


FUCK YOU for treating me like this

I should have never let myself feel this way.

I am not a good person. I'm slowly realizing that.

I want someone to lay down and look at the stars with me.

i know ive fucked up in the past and never quite been anybody or done anything in my life but i feel good about whats coming up.


im sorry slo bro's i love you guys.

I dream about you every night.

Sometimes I wish it would stop.

Then maybe it wouldn't hurt so bad to wake up.

i wish you could see the person i could be,
for you...with you.

maybe I'm just not enough, and that's okay.
because regardless of how you act to me, ill always be there for you
even when nobody else will.

I predicted that this would happen.

You're no different from the rest of them.

I can't look at old pictures anymore.

I can't believe that you're really gone.

its complicated, what did you expect?

I love Kylie Hargrove.
-Triston

i think. i may have a new crush.

You're confusing the hell out of me.
Do you like me or not?

what do you want from me?

goddamnit, i miss you.

I want this feeling to go away.

I'm so so sorry.

Wow, I haven't been on this in a while...do people from slo post on here anymore?

-natalye 

I think I may be attracted to situations I know won't work.

I wish you would just talk to me.. Just one word.

I miss you.

i've found the person i'm going to be with for a very long time, i don't know if we'll get married or not, but i just know its for the long hall. its such a relief because there is nobody who can cheer me up or make me feel the way this person does. its weird because i feel like nobody can relate to this because normally it takes longer to find this person. 

It seems like  a lot of people I know use their depression to get sympathy from people and/or more attention. I could be completely wrong but that's what it feels like.

I have a problem

i dont know how i do it...
every place i go is worse than the last.
every situation is more depressing.
ive got a feeling that i dont belong here.
ive got this lingering thought of suicide.
i just hope that one day ill have the balls to do it...

im so fucking tired.

I don't feel like getting up and going outside ever again.

i want to tell you i like you, but...
you might already know
you might not care
you might not think its genuine, or worth persuing
and it might make my position worse.

soi guess ill just wait untill its obvious enough for you.

shitty anarcho punks

I still don't know what you think, but I wish I did.

i could tell you i'm sorry, but i'm not ready to tell you why.

I'm so very happy with my life.
I feel like everything is falling right into place. =]

I'm sorry I haven't been myself. I keep saying I'm sick and I need to be away but I'm sick inside.
I think I've finally done it...I've gone crazy.
I love you all so much but I have issues to deal with and it's really hard for me to share my feelings without getting angry. Stick with me I don't want to be as alone as I feel. Text me.

i hate everyone except for you i cant wait to see you tomorrow

I think there's something wrong with me.

I think punxecret should be deleted altogether. 

Nick Vicars

my life has been so rediculous lately, and im so incredibly lost.
all i can do is laugh about it and hope that things will get better.

i have no idea what i am doing with myself.
but it feels okay.

I know that this is only temporary,
and so I'm trying to not let myself get too into it.

This was the place that I could write down and share my thoughts and secrets, and now it's been ruined for me.
Thanks for deleting my posts and turning this into one more place where my thoughts aren't good enough.

i love megan o' brien

even though its only been 3 days i miss you so muchhhhhh!

I really do like you.
That's the problem.

coffee?

Good idea.

Anythng else?

Not until this cup is empty.

expect nothing, keep moving.

Alright, to start this shit off again...

Where do I go now? I was so psyched.

i did it...

so what?

Same as post secret, post your secrets!
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